Practicing more self love, more honesty to the world, and embracing the bumps along the road.
From wrist tendonitis problems to back problems to hormones to sleep problems - my postpartum journey back to recovery has been ROUGH. The body felt weaker than pregnancy, the breastfeeding was harder than childbirth. In fact I exercised way more during pregnancy than postpartum. Finding a good rhythm to actually have time to workout has been so tricky… and the moment I thought I could be consistent with something, I realized I really couldn’t. Because she comes first, and then I’d forget about me.
I have forgotten how many times I felt defeated, handicapped, unable to face the world, I have forgotten how many times I just wanted to just give up on myself. I expected everything to be different and harder, but I never expected myself to feel so unable to handle any of it. #respecttoallmoms
I have forgotten how to take care of myself even if I wanted to. I now understand why they say it takes a whole year to bounce back. At 7 months postpartum, the struggle is still there, but definitely feeling the recovery happening, especially after weaning from breastfeeding. My mind is more at peace, knowing that Naomi is doing great. I shall allow myself to take time to really enjoy her first year first, and enjoy this slow journey.
Now I understand that, it’s not a race back to where I was. That was never the point, but to be elevated and be more than you ever used to be.
Practicing more self love, more honesty to the world, and embracing the bumps along the road.
#thisisnotarace #thisisjustarun
#notsupposedtowin #justsupposedtolove